Today someone told me something that got me thinking. We were on the train and the train decided to stop on the station for a while and people were coming in. As asians came through (we were leaving school) that certain person asked me why I "couldn't be like the other asian girls" and I thought about it and I said what came to my mind (as I always do), "because I would hate myself."

Because I'm a complete compulsive worrywart about such things I kept thinking about it. Do people really expect me to be some (somewhat)annoying little asian girl while sacrificing what I enjoy doing (consisting mainly of cursing people out and being as loud as I possibly can) and what I am? Is being some nice little asian girl the only thing people want from me? Does being some overly self-reliant and crazily (to a slightly insane extent)...well crazy girl make me unattractive?

Yeah. I'm a questioning type of person.

But really all I cared about was being good enough for others to enjoy being around me.
So really. Am I good enough?
Really, I just don't get it.

I thought I shouldn't post this (because I seem like a total weakling) but I thought about it (for about 30mins). It might be nice to have some answers and it'll be...FUN! And you guys know how much I like fun~

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